I have to laugh at myself  because it’s just so silly, here I am complaining ’again’ about my present reality because it doesn’t add up with the reality that I’ve already pre-painted & self-created in my mind, an egotistical reality were everything just does what it’s told all of the time & I’m the boss.  It’s ridiculous when you think about it I’m getting annoyed & frustrated at my present world, the one I physically, emotionally, mentally & spiritually live & function in because to my mind, my ego it’s not the same world that it has already previously created for me in the past ahead of time...

Ludicrous, how on earth am I supposed to contend with that, no wonder I’m unhappy & it looks like if I continue to listen to my ego then I’ll never be happy because nothing will ever seem to satisfy, nothing will ever go exactly to plan & to have depth in life, life always has to be created by more than just one person. If I were to fully live & listen to my ego’s version of reality nothing it seems would ever add up & everyone I meet would drive me crazy because they just weren’t doing what they were told or what they were supposed to be doing...

Complete madness again, how do I keep coming back to this place... Ah I remember, the mind, the insatiable, unsatisfiable ego draws me back in again & again to remind ’re-mind’ me of why I shouldn’t be happy & of how things are ’meant’ to be in this world. You know you’ve worked hard you deserve to live in any reality you want & if I spend all of my time creating a limited version of reality just for you I expect you to live in it otherwise how do you expect me to function, I’m the boss of this world remember, I’m the creator & don’t you forget it...

Ha ha.....  completely mental. I love the ego it never let’s you down, you can always rely on it to be just exactly what it is ’an ego’, a representative of yourself pretending to be you, a limited version of you living in an unlimited version of you. It’s like having a vehicle with unlimited potential, a vehicle with unlimited speeds that can take you anywhere in the universe at any time but with an infant in the driving seat. The infant has only just learnt how to drive with stabilisers on around the block nevermind warp speed round the universe. So you can’t blame it really, it’s only doing & functioning how it knows best.. but that doesn’t mean you have to let it rule & command you, remember the ego is only a small part of you & is not the whole you even if it would like you think & believe that this is the case.

As I’ve found It seems to be a fine line when distinguishing between realities, how is it exactly that you determine who’s in the driving seat... Well if in doubt you only have to ask yourself one question "are my thoughts, feelings & actions about this serving me for my highest good & for the highest good of all". If the answer is yes you’ll know that somebody other than the ego is in the driving seat & if you’re answer is no you can be pretty sure you’ve got an infant back in the driving seat but be careful because the ego may be an infant but it is very clever & knows it’s version of you very well. When you ask the question "are my thoughts, feelings & actions about this serving me for my highest good & for the highest good of all" be careful the ego doesn’t try to let you believe that you are serving the highest for you & the highest good for all by serving what it see’s to be the highest good for it. You see to the ego & it’s reality it can be very easy to mistake the highest good for you & the highest good for all with it’s own highest agenda. So for increased discernment & clarity for who’s in charge of your reality I’ve found as well as listening to your mind when asking the question "are my thoughts, feelings & actions about this serving me for my highest good & for the highest good of all" also trust & listen to the answer from your heart & your intuition, for they never lie...