Diary of A Sensitive - 'Grounding the Light'

By Kimberley Jones

I am going through a growth spurt at the moment which seems to involve descending further into my body, a result of healing & transforming some old wounds on an even deeper level.

One thing that has triggered this shift is that my Father has come back into my life after almost 30 years & it is really churning up some stuff.

Like many of you I have done years of self-healing work on my "stuff". Every so often I reach a levelling off point, a plateau where I think I've finally cracked it, that perhaps one of my wounds has finally healed. Then all of a sudden I am hurled into another phase of deeper healing & processing.

For me these experiences are spontaneous, I no longer have to go digging for something to heal, it emerges in its own right time in response perhaps to an external event, a healing session, a life change or a prayer or intention I have sent out into the universe. Or it’s just time for it to come up.

As the wounds heal, I see & feel the energy of them inside me & around me. I see & feel this energy as colour. The colour gets churned up within me like clouds of ink in water & for a while can fill me & my energy fields.

At this point I need to be really mindful & remember to be my own loving observer of what's happening, if I forget to be the neutral observer of all I'm feeling then I start to project the qualities of this energy & its particular colour coding out onto the world. If I do this I start to think that everything I'm feeling is to do with something outside me such as that person over there, this situation over here etc. Then I analyse the whole thing & try to fix it.

"It's not easy being green!" - Kermit the Frog

My current cloud of ink is dark green, an energy that gets stored within people when they feel for some reason they are not quite good enough just as they are. It is old energy, old thoughts & old feelings to do with another time & place, but with the right trigger up it comes! My Father is the right trigger!

So my loving observer as the 36 year old Kimberley Jones knows that all these feelings are not to do with now, I know deep down that I am good enough & that all the feelings of hurt, rejection & betrayal are coming up to be released & healed. So it is a celebration yes?

Well, to be honest I'm not celebrating yet. My higher self can hold that perspective, sure. But the wounded child, the rejected teenager & the hurt young woman need some time to air their feelings. So it is my job to listen with love & compassion to all those parts of me seeking to express, release & return to wholeness, all the while rallying with emotional outbursts, stomach aches, nausea, fevers & all the other physical manifestations of dark green "I'm not good enough" energy as it stirs up just prior to transforming into love.

So as one of the oldest & deepest wounds I carry is in the middle of healing I can feel myself changing on many levels. I am carrying more light, buzzing more, seeing more energy, sensing spirit more clearly. The new part of this for me is that I am doing all this whilst remaining grounded in my body. To some extent although less & less over the years I have always sensed that I reach upwards & outwards to access my knowing or 'gnowing', as though opening my mind & casting a wide net out into the Universe.

This is changing. I am meeting the Source through some kind of portal within me that also reaches out into the cosmos. Sounds bizarre I know. All I'm saying is that the information I 'receive' & share with my clients comes from within me & outside me at the same time. My mind has understood this concept for years but only now am I actually experiencing it WITH MY BODY.

“There’s no limit to the good we can do if we don’t care who gets the credit”

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Blessings,

Kimberley Jones

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